Saturday 3 December 2011

Pride and Prejudice

''I always knew he was kind of a jerk, just look at the way he talks. Soo arrogant!!'', I hissed eyeballin' at the pg at a safe distance away from me.
"Is it? What else did he do?'', quirped luxmi with the look of a small kid hearing a story. She did look curious indeed.
"Arey, last time i saw him treat his unit interns like a shitbag. I just overheard how bossy he sounded! Gaudd, u should have listened!!'' i whispered back with a tensed eyebrow leaning bit towards her, making sure no one else heard it.
"hmmm'',..she nodded with an indifferent look on her face.
''But what makes you come to this conclusion, only for that particular instance?'', she sounded little incredulous,''even we turn mean at times, don't we?'' she added.
"Noo,that's not just it, I heard he has the same behaviour even in his own unit, as if he's the boss. One of my senior said he also got a taste of his arrogance last time during the emergency. He got angry and they almost had a fight'', I tried sounding convincing eventhough I wasn't so convinced at those news myself. Atleast there will be some truth in it, if not all. And when you are trying to prove your point then.. 'thoda masala to chalta hai na'.
"Oo..is it?''
''yaa.. these central pgs are really arrogant. They don't know nothing about practical things.but act like they know everything. They may be good at theory but that's it. Someone should teach them to be humble!!'',I was xpewing negztivity at my very best. Somehow the cynical me was jubiliant inside having got the approval of her. I was successful in proving my point.
Just then Ritchie came in after his ward round,''So whats the discussion about?''
"you see that central pg over there? No not the tall one the one holding the file..yah yah..'' And so I started again..

How many times have we made a prejudiced comment about someone just for the sake of getting a hot gossip? The satisfaction of having convinced someone of what we think
and to get ears from those around you sometimes drives us to say some trash stuffs about some one we have long been having a grudge against. The worse part is that we tend to make up things or add things that may well spice up things but sadly end up denigrating the person's reputation. I wasn't like that before. When and how did I ever start talking trash about people like that. I have thought about it becos long after my banter is over when m alone, my own words haunt me adding burdens on my already piling up guilty trash. But in solitude i realise that just like the St.Augustine's pears my deeds are irreversible however hard i may try reversing it.
I realised that the taste of talking trash and backbiting others came subtly by hearing some of the people around me doin it.I didnt subscribe to it at first, but as I kept being in their company I started enjoying it and the seed took root from there. With my every nod and hmms I was watering the seed and finally when I started giving my own prejudiced inputs I started enjoying it and long before I realised, the seed had a borne its fruit.
Let me not preach a sermon here with 'we should' and 'we ought tos' but hope this reading bring out a consciousness of this despicable habit that becomes a part of our personality without we even knowing it. Be safe:)

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